Sleepless Wonder

I thought I would never have to say/do this...

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Thu, 13 Nov 2008 13:19:00 +0000

I may have to put someone up on harassment charges.
We rented - to - own our house to this couple, which we had a gut feeling in the being that it may be a mistake ( we didn't know them so that wasn't the reason) well we paid the property and water tax up to the date they moved in, and they were suppose to take care of it after that, as was the verbal agreement, (that was in June) in August I get a call from her saying that her water was shut off, and me being the push over I am, we ended up loaning them the money to pay it for them for the rest of the year ( not that we could afford it mind you) And they were suppose to pay us back, when in Sept. we didn't get a payment we knew we would never see that money again. Then the 1st of Nov. we get a call from them saying they were moving out in a few days!! And wanted the rent back!! I call the social assistance place ( that is who paid us the rent) to figure out how much we needed to give back, according to one guy ( I need to remember to write ppls names down) we did not owe them anything because they had not given us 30 days notice. While later I was actually talking with their social worker, and she was a tad rude she basically said she didn't care what was going on? Huh shouldn't you care that the ppl you give a cheque to each week are screwing you over as well.
Well anyway, we finally agreed to 350$ to go back, no way they were budging on giving us back the money we loaned them mind you. And we and they signed a letter stating the money and stuff that needs to stay in the house.and the date they needed to be out by, The date went by and we waited 4 days (with a lot of harassment calls in between this for more money) we went and changed the locks. They had to scedule a time with me to get the rest of their stuff, so it should be no big deal anymore, it should be done. They are still calling!!! And even at 7:30 in the morning!!! The cop I was talking to told me once their stuff was out and if they kept calling I could charge them with harassment which I got a feeling I may have to. Ever time my phone rings my stomach goes into knots, wondering what crap they are going to get on with this time. Urgh!!!!!

Should baby make 4 (well technically 6 I guess)

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 14:44:00 +0000

* Warning this may hurt a MAN's eyes. Woman only. :) *

I have been going back and forth on this idea of trying for another baby. I am not sure. When it is only me and Toby in the house it seems like there should be another child. But when we have the SS's here there are 5 of us and it seems like to many people.
And I would really really really like a girl. But I think I would be heartbroken if it turned out to be another boy, and BF doesn't have a good track record for making girls he has 3 boys right now, so what are the chances for it to be a girl this time??
Is there any way to "make" a certain gender??? I read somewhere that if you douche with such and such it makes for either a girl or boy, something to do with making the uterus more acidic or something. Sorry to say I am not douching with anything. TMI???
Should I just say ok lets try and it doesn't matter what the child will be as long as it is healthy. I know that is how I should feel, but I don't I want a girl, but I know if it did happen and it was a boy I would love him anyway.
Oh I don't know. I think I have been feeling like wanting another cause I always said that by the time Toby was 3 I would have my mind made up or would have another child by then, well the deadline for that is TOMORROW!! can you believe he will be 3 tomorrow. Man those years went by real fast.
We are having a little celebration tomorrow, nothing big just a cake and some presents from family and stuff. The next Sunday we are having a big party for him. I say we but I really mean ME, I have been doing everything for the party, I guess like most moms. The bf will be there at the party to help out a bit ( cause I have given him no choice. hehe) but as for the planning and preparing *pfft* it's all me, is everyone else like that when it comes to planning parties and stuff for their kids it is usually the mom's job???
Better go and see what Toby is up to now. He is too quiet. Not good sign.

I'm not dead... well wish I was at times and the goose.

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Sun, 28 Sep 2008 22:45:00 +0000

I just noticed the last time I wrote on here was June 3. Oops. I haven't written because to be honest there wasn't much to write about.
Had a fairly crappy summer, weather sucked stayed at home with no vacation. And have been feeling like crap off and on all summer. I am now suffering from Nausea and headache since Wednesday, no matter what I eat it turns my stomach. No idea what it is, I guess if it keeps up I will have to go to the doc.
My mother has given up driving so I have been her chauffeur lately which I don't mind, I would rather do that then her feel like she needs to drive. She has an appointment in Oct. (which will not come quick enough) she has seizures and they are not sure why, hello it has been 10 years someone needs to figure out something. I worry about her constantly. Last Friday I went to pick her up like I normally do, and she was in the window waving for me to come in, I go in and she has the hand torn off herself, it looked like someone took and knife and tried to fillet her hand, and she had her glasses broken and 2 cuts on her head close to the temple, she couldn't remember what happened, she had another seizure which seems to be happening more and more lately, she had to go to the hospital anyway for her shot and they done her hand up, the cuts on the head didn't look bad so they just cleaned then, well the next day what a shiner she had, oh my then it became this bag of blood under her eye. I can not wait for Oct. so hopefully they can figure out why he medication doesn't seem to be working.
On to the lovely goose. I use the term lovely very loosely... well for the past 4 or 5 weeks we have been going down to the wharf and feeding the ducks, There are a ton of ducks, more then in these pictures.
there is a goose that stays with them, ( in the left hand upper corner of the second picture)he never bothered us before just ate the bread we tossed out along with the ducks. Well yesterday we were there and feeding the ducks, then I hear Toby shout, when I look the freaking goose has him hold by the jacket, my first reaction was to kick the goose, I had to kick him 3 or 4 times before he finally let go. I feel bad for kicking him ( even though I don't think I hurt him) but the Mommy Monster just took over. Something was trying to hurt my son. I just reacted. I love animals, as long as they don't try to harm my child.
I am hoping to keep writing here, if anything interesting happens, which probably won't lol.
Well Toby will be 3 next Sunday so I will probably post about that, I am preparing for his birthday party now, which I have scheduled for the 12th, just trying to prepare what I can now so I don't have a ton of stuff to do the night before. I procrastinate a lot so it would end up the night before.

I am so mad I could spit.

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Tue, 03 Jun 2008 15:45:00 +0000

I just heard that bio bitch maybe moving over this way to work this summer, meaning she will be bringing the step sons (not a bad thing) the bad thing is, is that I have a feeling she thinks she will have a free babysitter when she has to go to work. I am sorry for her but I am not taking care of them all the time so she can work. She never wants to let us have them on weekends any more unless she has a party to go to or something that she needs a babysitter for. And if Rod isn't home I am not staying home just to watch them so she can work, and with all the money we send her every month, we can't afford to have them here all the time. Sorry I am just pissed off right now. I can't go to work because we can't afford a babysitter, I don't want to work just to pass over my pay check to a babysitter, I would rather be home with my son then work for nothing.
I don't even know if this is making any sense at all i am just pissed and needed to let it out.
It's summer time soon and that means the circus is coming again, she will probably do what she has done the last 2 years and run away with the circus and leave her kids with her mother. The first year she done this we had no idea where the boys where for like a month. She is such a urgh nevermind.
Better stop here before I type something I will regret.

I am now certified...

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Wed, 07 May 2008 19:56:00 +0000

Well I am now a certified car seat inspector!!! I am prod of myself for doing this, even though most of the people around me thinks it was a waste of time since I will never get a job doing this or paid for my services. Ah hello that is what volunteering is about.
It was a grueling day when we had the car seat clinic, started at 9:30 am and we didn't get done till like 5:00pm, we had 46 care seat appointments and god only knows how many drop ins we had. I have a very nasty sun burn on my face and neck, including the tops of my ears. I burn so easily I should have worn sunscreen but I haven't bought any for this summer yet.
This is the first time I have gotten a chance to sit down to the computer long enough to type anything since before Sunday. I had a First Aid/ CPR course last night, so I will be certified in that soon too.
Better run, by the smells of it supper is done, home made meatballs( made from scratch) and rice. Yum-o.

Car seat training

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Sun, 04 May 2008 10:09:00 +0000

Well after 2 days of training I am headed to a car seat clinic today (along with 13 other people) we have learned how to install car seats ( for babies and kids) we have 46 seats booked to do and you have to do at least 6 with another person to become certified, so hopefully when I get back home today I will be a Certified Car Seat Inspector. It is going to be one helluva day that's for sure.
If you are from Canada check out their website...
www.kidsinsafeseats.ca ( I think that is the site I will check and fix it later if it is wrong.)
More to write later when I get home, trying not to type to loud (been told I do that) cause Toby and Rod are still sleeping, wish I was. 7 am is so not a good time for me to be getting up.'
Wish me luck.

This might be long, it might be short, have not decided yet...

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Thu, 20 Mar 2008 14:13:00 +0000

Urgh I hate feeling like this, and I have been feeling like this for a long time. By this I mean useless and not needed/wanted.
I wasn't going to post about this but I need to get it off my chest. I have been in such a downer mood lately, I am useless lately, I manage to clean a little, and cook sometimes. But I want to do nothing all day. The only reason I am not in bed all day is because of my little boy. I am trying to force myself to take him to this sort of mommy and me class today, haven't been there in a long time with him, for 2 reasons... 1 the weather has been crap lately with storm after storm, and 2 I have no interest in going anywhere. The furtherest I have went lately is to the store to pick some stuff up that we needed, and that is it. And the only reason for that is cause Rod won't do it. If he would go to the store for me, I wouldn't leave the house.
It is beautiful here today and I know I should take my son outside, cause he would love it so much, but I have a headache of course and the sun will only make that worse, and I have no interest. I would rather sit inside and watch tv or just fiddle around on here.
What is wrong with me URGH!!!!! I hate feeling like this and I don't know what to do to fix it. I probably should go to the Doctor or something but I just don't want to tell her any of this, about how I am feeling, because either she will just blow me off or think I am crazy, or maybe something worse. I take care of my son, he is fed and played with and bathed and everything else, but that is about it. I keep the house reasonable, and I try to cook at least once a day.
I don't have any energy at all, I am not getting to bed till 1 or 1:30am every night, and I can't see how to get Toby to change his sleeping habits/schedule.
I feel like such a failure lately. I haven't been going to this mommy and me thing, because some days (most days) it is too hard to paste on a fake smile and pretend everything is hunky dory. I feel so alone, and I feel so useless. I need to go to the mommy and me thing today I need to for my son, cause if I don't go out in the day neither does he, and I know that can not be good for him. Got to go now, becuase he wants to type now as well.

Well my prayers were not answered.

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Fri, 15 Feb 2008 02:50:00 +0000

URGH. I have to go to the dentist, the Doc says my ears look good, and he thinks I may have an abscess, which I have since been informed usually means the tooth has to come out or a root canal.
Heck I am terrified to get a cavity filled let a lone a root canal or a tooth removed. But right about now I wouldn't care if I could get it done. I am on the cancellation list in this town and emergency list for the town 40 mins away. The quickest either can get me in is 4 months time. 4 MONTHS!!!!!!! that is unreal.
We really can't afford to travel 4 hours to a dentist, even though people have told me that you can get an appointment fairly quick. This is one of the times I wish I was on social assistance, the trip would be paid for, and half the dental work paid as well. Rod's company insurance covers 100% of dental work up to a certain amount. So the only money I would need would be the travel money.
We may just have to budget it in, cause I don't know how much more of this I can take.
I am on antibiotics, so hopefully if there is an infection there it may help, I have so many meds in me, it may not be safe for me to close my eyes tonight, and I still have a shit load of pain. I even tried icing the pain away but that didn't help. I read to take a shot of whiskey and hold it near the tooth for a little and spit it out. Wonder would Vodka work ( I have the vodka in the house from a few months ago)
Anyone have any advice for the pain, while I wait to get into see a dentist?

Going to the Doctor tomorrow(hopefully)

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Thu, 14 Feb 2008 00:43:00 +0000

This doesn't happen very often, I only go to the Doc if I feel like I am dying. And I want to die about now. Since Monday night my jaw has been killing me, and I have been sick to my stomach. Today was the worst yet, I woke up at 5 am in such pain I had to get out of bed and go take some meds, which isn't much just extra strength tylenol, it's all I have in the house right now. I washed my face earlier and wanted to cry it hurt so bad. Even my eye on the right side is hurting, my whole right side of my face is killing me. I am crossing my fingers and praying that it is only an ear infection or something, and not a cavity. For 2 reasons I hope it's not a cavity... 1. I HATE/FEAR the dentist like you wouldn't believe. and 2. this is February I might get an appointment with the dentist for June if I am lucky. There is a VERY long waiting list for dental care. Unless I want or can afford to travel like 5 hours. Which right now is not a good idea, the weather is so unpredictable and we can't afford such a trip.
Oh and my arm is no better it is worse, in January the Doc told me I had carpal tunnel syndrome in my arm he told me to buy and brace and wear it every night, which I have and my arm is worse. I really shouldn't be typing this but I have to do something. It is worse at night, and trying to carry a 2 year old with a bum arm isn't easy. I hate that I can't do a lot of things anymore, like cut my finger nails, seriously, my hand just doesn't want to cooperate with me. That is only one thing I have difficulty with. I would be here to long if I mentioned everything, and typing this is hard enough, my fingers just don't go where I want them too anymore. URGH.
I think I am falling apart. I am only 27 ain't this suppose to happen way later then this??
Wish me luck and pray that my pain is anything BUT a cavity.

I have added some links

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Wed, 30 Jan 2008 16:45:00 +0000

I added a few more blogs to my blogroll, If I added you and you would rather not be there please let me know. These are just some of the blogs I check daily. I really need to look into this goggle reader thing I hear/read people talking about. cause a lot of the time I am wasting my time clicking cause some don't post everyday, and I think this reader thing tells you when there is a post. Something to look into.
So if I added you and you don't like it, please just let me know. I am still trying to figure out this "blogging" thing, and I am not sure if I needed permission before hand or not.
Thanks

I'm a good-for-nothing

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Wed, 30 Jan 2008 16:30:00 +0000

I wish I had a talent, like many of the ladies I have been reading about in their blogs. I can't cook, I can't sew/knit, I can't take pictures, and I am not very good or interesting with this blog thing. Damn I suck. I have been pondering this for a long time, who I am and what am I good at. I don't even think I am a good mother, common law wife. I was a wife at one time and obviously wasn't very good at that either since I am now divorced after only 4 years of marriage, guess I could blame that on getting married young (19).
My life seems to be going no where, I have no direction, nothing to look forward to. I have nothing. I have one good friend in real life. And maybe one or two online.
I suck I suck I suck.
I like to scrapbook, but never find the time for it anymore, I probably could find the time but with Toby he always needs to be right into what I am doing, so as soon as I take it out I need to keep everything enclosed so he doesn't get his hands on it and hurt himself. Like if I am cutting something, as soon as I am done with the scissors (even if I need them again in a few minutes) I have to put them away. It got so annoying that I just gave up.
I want to give up on everything most days and today is one of those days.
Urgh sorry about whining so much, I just had to get it out.

How much more can I take??

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Sat, 26 Jan 2008 16:07:00 +0000

I just got a call informing me that my uncle has cancer, well on Thursday they knew he had it in his bowels. Someone just called and told me it is in his lungs and liver as well. If he doesn't have the bowels surgery the docs give him a month to live. Urgh I hate this. My grandmother just passed and we are not over that yet and now my uncle (on the other side of my family) has just been given a death sentence basically.
My mother doesn't know yet. And I don't think I can be the one to tell her, this is her brother and I know they were close before he moved away. I can remember when I was younger always going to their house and playing with my cousins, his sons,. I just don't know how much more bad news I can take.

Funny band thing

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Tue, 22 Jan 2008 03:57:00 +0000

I stole this from Dutchbitch. Lets see what I come up with.

Let’s make a band:
1. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random
The first article title is the name of your band.

2. http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3
The last four words of the very last quote is the title of your album.

3. http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days/
The third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

Now take your pic, add the band name and title to it, then post it. Here is my album cover.
It is not done that great, cause at the moment all I have on here is the PAINT program.

Not a bad picture, could have been worse lol.

She will be missed

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Tue, 15 Jan 2008 16:23:00 +0000

I am writing this post with a heavy heart, and a tear or two.
My Nan passed away on Friday morning from a heart attack. It has been a very rough few days, for my son as well. He is used to me being home with him, but Rod watched him all weekend while I spent time at the chapel with my nan and my family.
It was very hard to say goodbye to her. But I am happy to know she is in a better place ( if such a place/thing exist) I hope she is anyway. She is no longer in pain, she wasn't sick or anything just sore bones and stuff, she was 86 after all. I think she lived a long life.
I will always remember her, Her birthday is the day before Toby's. I just hope if there is such a place as heaven that is is there watching over us.
Rest In Peace Nan, I love you.

Excited and scared...

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Thu, 03 Jan 2008 02:42:00 +0000

Well 2008 has started... I hope this year will be good, but I have this nagging feeling that it's going to be horrible. I hope and pray that I am wrong.
I am worried about my mom, she seems to be getting worse with her seizures and it is scary, they used to only last a few seconds and she would only have them maybe 1 a month or so, but the last 2 I seen were within a week of each other and they seem to be lasting long. She almost managed to throw my christmas tree on the floor on Christmas eve ( I caught on to what she was going to do and managed to grab it before it hit the floor) and then on New years day at my Aunt's for dinner she had another right after she finished eating, and got up to walk out the door.
She has already had a small accident while driving because of a seizure, and I see bruises on her face which she has no idea how they got there. I think it is maybe from her falling or something. The thing is she is so thick headed and stubborn she won't tell her doc that they have gotten worse, she doesn't remember when she has them or what she does while she is having one.
I wonder can I go to her doc alone and discuss my fears and stuff with the doc?
And don't bother telling me she shouldn't be driving, I know this and so does she, there just is no talking to her. I love my mom and I am so worried and stressed out by this.
Ok this post went somewhere completely different then I intended it to. I was going to write about my other worry ( yeah I have a few I'm a worry wart) Rod maybe leaving for the mainland of Canada in February. He has a job offer up there which is better then what he is getting here ( his current company is having a meeting this Monday with the union to discuss a possible raise, if it goes the way Rod hopes he won't be leaving but if not he feels he doesn't have a choice, we just barely make it from paycheck to paycheck, with Child support and bills and everything. But if he does go I am not going with him, the job up there is one that he may not be at home for weeks at a time, so I figure what would be the point of me leaving with Toby and going away from my friends and family, I may as well stay where I am, this is only a 6 months thing for now, 6 months on 6 off. He can then decide what he wants, to stay like that go full time or go back to his current job ( which he will take an annual leave from).
My year has not started out very good, I ust hope the worse is almost over and things only get better. No wonder I don't sleep at night, and I am going bald, all this is only the tip of the iceburg. Urgh

Merry Christmas to all...

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Mon, 24 Dec 2007 20:35:00 +0000

Been quite a busy day indeed. Got up this morning and fed my boy, was planning to bring him around with me to deliver gifts and cards but Rod showed up at 12, he got off early. So at least I didn't have to drag Toby out in this horrible weather. My best friend ended up driving behind me and managed to get my attention to pull over, when I did and rolled down the window she passed a gift into me. I felt so bad, I told her not to get me anything, (she is a single divorced mom of 3 kids) I knew she could not afford anything, I barely could. I had her gift in the car after just buying it, lol I am just as bad as her I suppose we agreed not to exchange gifts and then we both ended up getting something for the other one lol.

Got a pizza in the oven for supper, I know there will be a lot of food coming the next few days so I figured have something easy tonight.

My mother just called to say she wasn't going to church, *phew* that meands I get off from going too, I was going to bring Toby to the Christmas eve service, but with him going through the terrible 2's and the weather being crappy I didn't really want to go, this is usually the only time in the year that I actually go to church.

Not much of anything else planned for tonight, we have to go to my aunt lately which is just literally a jump and skip up the road, but I will be driving there cause I don't want to risk Toby getting sick, he just got over pneumonia.

I am so not in the mood for this, this year. And it seems like a lot of other people feel the same way from reading people's blogs and hearing people around town and stuff.

I am going to track Santa for toby later at www.noradsanta.org should be interesting.

Have a Merry Christmas everyone.

Just a rant and a mix of everything

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Fri, 21 Dec 2007 13:30:00 +0000

Urgh, I have been so letting this blog go. I just don't bother posting anymore, I read blogs but never bother to write in my own. Bad bad me, anyone want to give me a spanking? Come on you know you want to.

Well we got a new computer for xmas, it is nice to have a new one seeing as the old one sounded horrible when you turned it on, even the monitor was squealing. I like the computer mostly just because it is new, I like that it is all black, what I don't like... the screen is a wide flat screen, it has windows vista (still not sure if I like it or not) and the keyboard is so different from my old one.
The computer is faster, but there is nothing on here to be faster with, This is the thing I hate the most. All my bookmarks are gone. :( So I am slowly trying to get back at least the blogs I read daily. Hard to remember them all. I was smart enough to write down the addys to most of them, but of course I can't find my list and I am too damn lazy right now to sit down here and type them all in. I just like clicking and it's there, no need to think to much yeah I know STFU.
Well Merry Christmas or Whatever it is you celebrate. I will just be here trying to type in peoples addys. Urgh. Maybe this will help with my computer addiction lol. I will get so pissed off with the thing that I will just give up. Nahhhh not likely lol.

Enjoy your holidays people. I will be around somewhere. And if you want me to post more make a comment at least, let me know someone cares. :(

Think I need a tardy slip

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Thu, 15 Nov 2007 16:59:00 +0000

I have been really bad with getting the motivation to post lately. It's not like nothing has been happening I just didn't have the energy to type it out. Well Rod has been back to work now for 2 weeks and it has been a long hard 2 weeks, he comes home has supper and is in bed by 9 pm, his back is killing him and he has had to go back on the painkillers which dope him up so bad that all he wants to do is sleep.
The weather is getting colder and we have had a few flakes of snow fall nothing is staying on the ground yet Thank God.
I have been reading a lot of blogs lately and I love them all, I will add them to my blog roll eventually.
Now you see why I haven't posted anything?? This is just all so boring for anyone to read. I have nothing interesting happening. I managed to order 3 Christmas gifts today, those are the first gifts I have ordered or even bought for that matter, we have been broke beyond belief here for the last month or so. I am just hoping to get the Christmas shopping done, it will be a very cheap Christmas this year that is for sure. And I hate that they are playing Christmas music in the stores now, Urgh I think I am just being a scrooge this year, maybe because I am afraid I won't be able to get presents for everyone on my list. Urgh .
I have been thinking of trying to find some work that I can do from home and that are not scams, but everything I have found so far is so scammer city.

My new ride, for now

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Sat, 25 Aug 2007 00:51:00 +0000

Here is a pic of my new ride, a few post ago I mentioned about an accident, well this is the car that the insurance company rented for me till we get everything settled, believe me I am in no hurry to get anything settled now lol, Well I am not the one who is dealing with it, it is my dad who is dealing with them, and boy are they being stubborn. So for now I get to call this car my own. Makes me feel bad that I have to give this back when the time comes, going from an almost 10 year old car to BRAND new is nice, very nice.
Well "my" car is silver and the interior is like this (below) but red instead of blue, it even has a bottle cooler in the glove compartment, and the cup holders are cool, I mean they keep your drink cold, how cool is that lol. This car is sooooo sweet. It almost feels like you are driving a van, but still have the small feeling for parking and stuff. Man if I did have the money ( around 18 thousand) I think this may just be the car for me.
Well not much else to say, just felt like sharing my "good" *drool worthy* news.
Only thing else happening around her is Rod getting under my skin and vice versa, he is going on week 4 now of being home from work with nothing much to do, he in not capable of much, we/ he decided to paint the patio today and guess who got roped into helping and then finishing over half of it herself?? Yup me that's who, I hate painting big things like that, now give me a painting or something any day, but rooms or houses and stuff no thanks, and I suck at it. Took me almost 5 hours, ok it is a big patio but my mom could have finished it in half the time it took me, well it was my first time so I don't think I did that bad, worse thing is where the wood was so old and in such need of a paint job, the paint just soaked right in, so that means we need another gallon of paint to do it at least once more. I may post pics when I am done, if I like it. :)
Have a good weekend people.

Meez me baby

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Fri, 17 Aug 2007 15:01:00 +0000

I stole dutchbitch's idea today. She had a meez on her site so I decided to go and try to make one myself. It is a fun little thing, couldn't make it look like me though, but I guess it is close enough.
Not much to say today, we are still figthing with the insurance company to come up with an offer, either fix my car or pay me. My dad is picking up a rental for me today, he should have been back by now, so wondering what is taking so long. I may have an update for you guys later on that.
But for now go waste some time and make a meez.

A little about me??

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Sun, 12 Aug 2007 20:45:00 +0000

Well this is a pic of me and my son. There aren't many pictures of me and him cause usually I am the one taking the picture. I try to stay behind the camera, I hate the way I look and have for a long time. Anyhow, here is a little info about me...
Live in a small town in Newfoundland Canada, met my ex husband when I was 17, got married at 19 and moved to The Netherlands with him, lived there with him till about 2004. Moved back to NFLD met Rod ( my boyfriend, and Toby's Dad) in 2004 as well. Had Toby in Oct. 2005. And have been living in the same small town I grew up in since May of this year.
I could make it a little more confusing by going into details but I think your heads would explode. LOL Below is another picture we had done. They didn't turn out very well, so I only have proofs, I don't want to spend a ton of money on pics that I don't like.

Oh and PS, more details on the car sitch tomorrow I hope. Damn they like taking their time don't they. Right now is perfect for going out for a cruise with the music blasting. So I am settling for blasting it here at the computer.

More of everything

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Sat, 11 Aug 2007 22:10:00 +0000

I can never seem to keep on the same topic in my posts at all. So usually the title matches only the first paragraph, so I think this title is more fitting lol.
Here is a pic of My little guy Toby and my dad. We were down to the unveiling of the Mariners Momerial that was placed in Grand Bank, it was erected for all of the men lost at sea. My grandfather was one of them. It made me really wonder how this must have effected my dad, he lost his father when he was only 6 or 7. He has said a few times in conversations about kids and stuff that he never had an example of how to be a father and he had to do the best he could. Which in my opinion was very good. He is always there for me, and now always there for my son. He is diffidently hooked on my son, he sees him at least once a day, he helped me/us get this house, and fix it up. He is now helping us find another vehicle. I don't know how I could ever thank him for all he has done for me. And I have no idea what I am ever going to do with out him.
Ok well this post could have used an actual title, I actually talked about just one thing this time lol. I am stopping now before I go on and on about something else. :)

God this page is boring

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Wed, 08 Aug 2007 13:45:00 +0000

I am wondering what I can do to make this place look better and more appealing. Since I am new at this and don't have much time on the computer, wanting a change may be easier said then done.

I haven't posted in a few days cause Rod has been home with a bad back, last Tuesday I had to call the ambulance for him, after finding him passed out on the bathroom floor, the doc figures the disc slipped and hit the nerves and the pain made him pass out. So he is home for 2 weeks at least.

Then that Friday, someone came out of a side road and hit me (well my car) in the rear tire. The insurance adjuster is coming today to have a look and see what will be done from there, we figure they may just write the car off, considering the car is a 98 and there is a nice bit of damage done, if they won't fix it I hope they give me enough money to get a half decent second hand car to replace it. I mean ok the book value may not be much, but the car is worth a million bucks to me, it gets me where I need to go no problem, and we just spent like 600$ about a month ago on a few repairs to the bloody thing and now we may lose it. Believe me I am not happy. This is the first time in my life I have had to deal with anything like this.
What a week we have had in deed.

Very nice surprise

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Tue, 31 Jul 2007 00:34:00 +0000

I got a very nice surprise today, when Rod came home for his dinner he asked if I would like to go to the theatre tonight. Ok guys it's not the theatre you guys are probably thinking. But oh my. This is a local theatre group, check them out www.grandbanktheatrefestival.com
We (me and 2 friends, it's not Rod's thing) got to see Honky Tonk Angels, and a special presentation by Even Tide, a local band. And OH MY GAWD they were so good, I usually don't like newfie music that much but I am in aw of them. They are 4 young people ranging between the ages of 16 - 20 or so, they have been playing for years. And what the girl can do with a fiddle *mouths drops* people probably heard me say oh my god. All I can say is that they were amazing.
I love my boyfriends company LOL they are sponsors of the theatre group and this was another sponsor night so we ended up with tickets. I already got the chance to go to one play which was the widow's walk, amazing. And he just told me that there should be 4 more tickets coming at the end of the month. WHOOOO HOOOO. lol
I will definitely be going to a concert of Even Tide if I ever get the chance. One of the guys is actually on the board of Burin Peninsula Brighter Futures with me, and I had no idea he had such a talent.
I am still reeling from the evening, can ya tell?? LOL
They have a kids only show tomorrow which is 10$ but I think I will be taking Toby, the friend that with me might be taking her son as well, they are only 2 months apart. Should be fun.
Better go and watch Hell's Kitchen LOVE THAT SHOW.
Now go check out the site of the Light house productions. Put your foot in the boot,

My aunt has lost her grand daughter.

noreply@blogger.com (sleeplesswonder) — Thu, 26 Jul 2007 18:14:00 +0000

I am not sure what she is to me... a cousin? Well anyway she is here visiting her Nanny for the summer, from Florida. So my aunt brought her down today to visit with me and Toby. Well my aunt is gone but she is still here lol. I have a PS2 that she discovered after we came in from playing soccer outside, started to get chilly, her Nanny was leaving and she asked if she was leaving too, she said no, and then she went looking around and seen the PS2 that we have in the boys room. She asked to play it, sure I just had to figure out how to turn it on. The play station was not the problem, it was just how we had it hooked up, it is on a very old TV that is hooked through the cable receiver and then through the VCR, don't ask, I just know it works. I had to call Rod and ask him how to turn it all on so that it worked.
This is the first time I have seen Jesse ( my aunt's grand daughter) since she was like 3, she is around 6 or 7 now, but she just came on in and we hit it off, or actually it may be the PS2. Got to go.